"Hola and welcome back to my moonly, reflective journal about my life on this lovely planet in these intense times.
WELCOME how are you?
Mid December, 2019
"Second week of December& already thoughts turn to Christmas. I'll be adding to this blog over the coming days as I focus on the nature at this time more so than the cultural way of doing things. You see the ancients celebrated "the return of the sun" on the 21st December, Winter Solstice, when the nights become shorter & days longer as we shift towards the Summer Solstice 21st June. They looked to the sky & the shift in plant & natural growth as their barometer of what was happening & they were so grateful that another year was dawning, giving them LIGHT to grow food.
I do believe that Jesus existed and perhaps his birth-day was indeed 25th December but to pin a vast proportion of human's belief systems , on the birth of a child, God's Son is to miss the bigger picture of the return of the sun on the 21st.
What was celebrated as sacred has evolved into an entity which brings as much pleasure as to it does pressure.
Jesus embodied the human potential for carrying the light of life, a way to live in harmony with the planet & fellow humans. He taught us how to co-exist & become better people. As we face the challenging shifts occuring within governments & nations across the world, would it not serve us now to refocus on the core of his message & to balance out our overt need to have for the "perfect" Christmas? Would we actually feel more fulfilled if we focussed on what nature was doing now? Or do we focus our source of happiness on an illlusory event tagged with pound signs & expectation?
The planet will exist with or without us. How we treat "her" & each other will determine whether we are part of that ongoing journey or not. Making time to sit & contemplate the magnificence of nature can be a key to balancing out any stress we may feel now. Self/traditionally/culturally created stress, which serves no-one.
More to come on how I honour Winter Solstice & enjoy a traditional (ish) Christmas day in the relatively non-festive & currently silent night in the North of Ibiza.
"These Times of deep inner change."
A sense of humour, an important quality now, as the world lives through such turmoil. I remain in uncertainty & daily routines to remain centred.
I don't "have to" live with much structure due to the natural life I live in Ibiza but structure is my salvation the last couple of years, as the old foundations & that of the collective is shaken to its core!
I've built strong daily roots.
I call it my ROOT-INE.
I foresaw these volatile times would come. I knew that modern life was going to take a hit, that it was neither sustainable to us humans or to the planet!
This knowing gave me the courage to dismantle my busy modern life in the West Midlands in England.
I made good money, had a design business, was engaged to a super wealthy, handsome man, lived in a stunning, country home & drove a fabulous car but something inside me was saying NO.
NO NO NO NO NO
I made an extreme change.
I sold my home, closed my business & left my fiance. I banked my money & left the UK... this was 2007/8.
I ended up in Ibiza at the end of 2008... in my convertible car, one of the only things I hadn't sold.
Trouble is, when you make such an intense outer change, your inner world isn't always caught up, so after a year here, I started to feel very scared & under pressure again. The life balance I thought I would find here, didnt feel the same when I was here full time. Paradise was lost. That inner pressure to succeed was still inside me! Driving me. Making me over think, over need. Exhausting me & I was in so much body pain too.
How could I relax? How could I live in flow? What was the answer?
"No-thing will make you happy." - One of my favourite quotes.
So this year I began to accept that my drive to succeed was the very thing which was blocking my happiness.
Succeed for what??? Balancing other people's lives? Bringing other people love, harmony & joy? Making lots of money doing it? For what????
I still seemed to feel unfulfilled in my own personal life.
No matter how much change I created in my clients' lives here I still was at the end of the day, living in a one room home, no car, single & living month to month financially.
I didn't really understand why I wasn't happy
Things still felt very HARD. It all felt external & I was in the middle, alone & stuck.
I was being hard on myself & it felt like life was being HARD on me.
I couldn't understand why I didn't have more money! More clients. More more more.
I'm good at what I do, I feel that..... so why am I struggling to grow in abundance?
But then I wondered why that was my goal anyway????
I can't believe I am even writing all this "dirty laundry"for you to see but it's true.... even though I've "given up" everything to be here & to follow my spiritual path, I have been still HOOKED on success!
Of course we all want to feel safe & able to pay our bills but I am starting to see a deeper reason for my apparent "lack" of business growth! ME
You see, most coaches, guides, yoga or meditation teachers are riddled with issues & self doubt. It's how come we come to find these things in the first place & the feeling of being compelled to help others, is driven by the massive need to help ourselves.
And it's true, had I not become a guide for others, I doubt I would be at this breaking point in my life right now, so I am truly grateful that I threw myself into it but fundamentally, in the work I'm doing what I was really doing was asking to be accepted.
See me. My weirdness. My psychic-ness My shyness My difficulties My lack My struggle See me. Please see me. Accept me. Help me. Empower me.
I may be able to guide you, but I am..... well, often terrified.
As a teacher of receptivity & vulnerabilty, it's perhaps no surprise that these are my own greatest lessons too.
And to be SEEN I had to reveal Myself
So here I sit, virtually no money in the bank, unsure how this month's rent will be paid but with a deep sense that it will be.... somehow or another & a sitting, receiving a deep gift from this year of 2019!
To be myself. And to be absolutely HONEST about who she is.
To be real & ot the one I think I should be or the one who will get her needs met...and become successful.
NO To just be me.
The me I have forgotten.
The me who doesn't even know what success means! Or why I'd want it!
The me who would scream to think I'd been living alone for a vast chunk of my adult life & putting all my value & sense of self esteem into work!!!!
The adult me I haven't even met yet in truth.
To be so open & unsure, to be so ME, that I don't even know what my work is anymore!!!!!!!!!! Or even what that means. I mean... are we our work????
So I'm closing this year with a simple statement. "Life will never be the same again."
The way I have been "doing" things is not working. I feel a deeper call & it's asking of me that I really don't know how I'll come out of the other side.
It' asking me to BE. To be me. To value that over everything.
To trust that I will be ok, just as I have been all these years.
Something is breaking. Thoughts, behaviours, doubts, ideas.
CRACKING FALLING SHAKING
My cocoon no doubt ready to crumble
IN a week's time I am returning to the UK, where I will give an evening of intuitive readings to a group of ladies, organised by an old friend of mine & I will also be attending a charity ball with one of my best friends.
I feel like this me is NEW RAW AUTHENTIC SCARED
Not because she's trying but because she's ready...
It's not all about work either! I'll be dancing & having some fun.
I sense it will feel GOOD actually but it is a road I don't fully understand yet & doubt does it even make sense to you reading this.....but write I do anyway. I share anyway. I feel this is my call. To be silly, strange, unusual & weird.... just as I was as a little girl.
Only difference is now.... if you laugh, that's ok... cause it's ME
& there ain't nothing I can do about that anymore.
When she's OUT she's OUT & she ain't going back in for anyone!!!!!
News update: The Moonwash 2019 closes 25th Dec & will reopen in February 2020 with a very new format!
For bookings before the end of this year, book asap. I am open for travel from 2020 to the UK, Europe... & possibly further. Who knows.... Groups & 1-1
All is unfolding but if you have any idea, please do ask & we'll chat some more.
Me will be very happy to meet you.
SO MUCH LOVE from Ibiza XXX
Discombobulated. One of my favourite English words but actually living in this state is something else!
It's how I've felt through quite some of September & most of October. Just when I think things are levelling out, going in a certain direction.... flip, everything dissolves & no straight path exists anymore & such is life in the higher dimensions we are entering now.
Living in Ibiza amplifies emotions. I'm not the only one to say this at all! The island is intense so if you're already going through an inner change (which most aware people are), then it is doubled or tripled in size and feeling here. Phew, what a time to be alive. I'm from England so the ongoing, confusing news about Brexit adds to the sense of uncertainty I am already feeling. Nothing is for sure, nothing is reliable, nothing is plannable!
Hmmm that's not true. Several things in my life do seem certain & these are things much more related to being in the moment, related to where I live, how I live, who I spend regular time with, so it seems that all I can rely upon lately, are the things which are right here & right now.
And isn't this how reality is evolving anyway? Taking us on a right old trip of shedding our ideas about security, until we recognise what is real & what is fake?
What is important & what is trivial. What is valuable & what is an unhealthy attachment.
I spend a lot of time alone but less so these last few months than in a decade. I've been around family & friends & discovered that I am much more able to stay present, communicate what I need & be unharmed by others' behaviour, taking things much less personally that I have before.
I am opening up, letting myself be seen, loving myself & yet also allowing things to be as they are!!!
My work is undergoing a transition & financially & from a logical/ future security based mind set, I could say "I am in trouble" however I do not feel this to be true in my core. I have less but I feel safe. I am earning far less but I have what I genuinely need. Having less has taken me on a massive editing out journey. Whereby I realise what I truly need & to what I was attached out of fear in the past. You may know that I don't have a car since three years and live in a one room tiny house in Ibiza for 7. I own virtually nothing.... my clothes, some pieces of reclaimed furniture, a few books, my beloved Dogs. That's it! I have a tiny pension (would pay out about £400 a year on retirement).
So... how am i basing this feeling of safety?
In my ability to stay still & face everything!!!!! In my connection to something which feels beautiful & loving inside me.
Facing the final days of the month.... witnessing how my rent always gets paid somehow. By me, not some magical fairy.... it all comes together but somehow without my forcing it. I am learning how to live in an observing & aware flow. It's not floaty, it's not unrealistic, life is real, bills must be paid but I'm not working AT making that happen, I'm allowing it to.
That is a feeling. It feels like.... love, it feels like fun, it feels lovely, it feels unbelievable, it feels wonderful, it feels light, gentle, like a gift, like play, like a new world.
I'm responding to the way things are, accepting them, asking open questions about how to adapt, work through, work with.... such as .... I've been invited to a ball in England end of November & also, asked to offer something to a friend & her girlfriends in Solihull..... so I am consciously weaving the two things together.
It's fascinating because the one thing will pay for the other, the women's gathering will fund the trip. So somehow I am enquiring within as to how to allow this to flow. Hard to put into words but the old me would take this much more black and white and make a decision much more quickly. Let's call this rock on rock. This me is now learning to add water to the rock to make clay, metaphorically speaking & to see what may take shape in my conscious hands.
It's not a case of "will I go to England or not?".... it's more like "what wants to take shape?" and this requires a more aware pair of hands, tuned in, receptive, open to all possibilties & some I may never have even heard of or considered before.
I look forwards to sharing more of this peculiar jigsaw with you as it unfolds as I know this is a core new part of my teaching.... RECEPTIVITY is the key & I've been saying this for years but quite honestly, still struggling to receive some of my basic needs.
I don't look like I'm living with very little do I?
Heehee.... but I am. I live in so many ways like a multi millionaire but this is due to my openess & ability to ask for help, to be humble enough to wear clothes I am given or that I find at the communal bins (we don't have house collections in Ibiza). I have released so much worry about how I look & yet that has caused me to look better than I feel I've looked in ages. I thew this outfit together above in two minutes and when my friend came to pick me up, I said to her with my head down, "do I look crazy?" She told me I looked sexy so out I went in this get up which is basically my bikini, yoga pants and dressing gown ;-)
I am often stopped and told that people like my style. It's all new. So self conscious I was for most of my life. Now I don't care, I've got flair and wow, it's freeing!!!
"The world needs us to be us more than it needs us to have more & more!!!"
Once we can be our authentic self, we don't need half as much!
I've given far fewer readings & coaching sessions this last three months. I seem to be working solely with Light Workers now & so my own inner alignement is becoming vital in order to serve others working in these field. My programmes are always available to those aligned, so I trust that me being quiet is a necessary lull so that I can adjust & integrate the true teaching of TRUST & allowing what's true to me to come to me.
The old clinging, holding on & worrying is fading away.
I wish you a sacred dark moon retreat in which you are able to see your real self & what you need. To open your arms to believing that it is possible to be served by the Universe to that level & to being calm, conscious & receptive enough for that process to take place.
They say the veil is thin between this world & other dimensions at Halloween, so it's an especially beautiful time to meditate, tune in & connect with your guidance.
H A P P Y H A L L O W E E N
For now, my love & eternal blessings.
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...How are you?" I'm writing to you today, at the Autumn Equinox. Today, day & night are in perfect balance all over the world. The sun enters the sign of Libra, bringing harmony & balance and, by necessity, change & transformation.
Of course in modern life we can buy fresh produce of all varieties all year but not so long ago this was not the case & we would have been out collecting our harvest & preparing for the harshness of Winter.
We valued natural life so much more then because we were more aware of our need of it. Now we take so much for granted, truly. I love September in Ibiza & collect grapes, figs & fennel each year, keeping any excess in the freezer so I can enjoy the flavours on cold Winter days.
Living on a tourist/ seasonal island is interesting as the season's changes are perhaps more dramatic for us due to high & then much lower numbers of people around. Also with the locals working a lot in the summer & then not so much! I do my best to enjoy Summer & all its benefits, instead of focussing only on the busy beaches & crazy drivers. Seeing friends over on holiday is part of this journey & seeing the island through their eyes is like a breath of fresh air to me. Sunday markets & sea swims take on a renewed flavour when done with someone who doesn't have this on their door-step or have the time to enjoy life's simple pleasures so often.
It's so human to become stuck in routines &, even living in "paradise" one can all too easily forget that this is not normal life for many people. I can become stuck on cleaning the house, updating the website, walking the dogs, watering the garden... repeat repeat repeat.... that I lose the reason why I came here, to step back from everyday life & be in the moment, the simple, profound joy of being alive on this beautiful planet. So having friends here gives me that smack on the bum to see and ENJOY what I have.
I gave up many material things in order to live here but sometimes my mind's been judging what I don't have & ignores what I actually gave it up for anyway! So I am so so so grateful to my friends that have been here this year for the extra mind wash & to SEE, VALUE & RESPECT my simple, beautiful life & focus much more on washing away any feeling of lack & comparison to my old more wealthy life!!!
I think we can all see that this planet is in a grand change & humans are awakening from a grand sleep in which we fell into detrimental patterns, not only for our own health but also the health of the planet. Appreciating what we have & learning to value that, releasing the incessant need for more & a never ending anxious feeling of never having enough, will undoubtedly enable many more people to consider working fewer hours like I did 15 years ago, choosing jobs or passions we actually enjoy & cultivating healthier life styles for ourselves and sacred Planet Earth.
It's worth taking a look at what we materially have now & realising that 10 years ago this was our dream! It can bring us back into the moment & into gratitude & truly, the world will be a better place if gratitude becomes the latest thing to own!!!
Have a gorgeous, replenishing dark moon beautiful souls. Discover what you are truly grateful for, even if it's oxygen, fresh water & a shower to clean yourself in! Our lives are indeed luxurious compared to many living today & it's vital we sit & reflect on that for our future health & happiness.
I'll see you on the other side of the new moon! Oh & the NEXT LIVE YOU TUBE CALL IS COMING SOON
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Wow, August was as always.... HOT & INTENSE but i've flowed through with much Restorative Yoga & simple living.
This is my best friend Sarah & her daughter Millie who stayed with me for a week this month, something I could never have done without my years of Moonwashing!
I was able to create such a healthy boundary for myself EVEN IN my no bedroom tiny house!!! We all slept in the same room for 6 nights, with 2 dogs &, agghhhhh a little rat, which kept sneeking in & scaring us half to death! I won't go into detail but let's say that paradise has it's..... challenges ;-)
What could have been a squeeze & a recipe for disaster & arguments, turned out to be the funniest & loveliest time ever.
Was I tired out? Yes. Do I wish maybe my house was an tiny bit bigger? Maybe. But generally speaking everything was fabulous!
I'd been meditating the days before they arrived & I received so much guidance on how to make things right for everyone & this included a daily rota in which everyone had their morning, afternoon & evening jobs to do! Imagine!
I would NEVER have asked for this in the past but now I know what I need so I was able to draw a lovely, colour coded chart which each of us abided by to the absolute joy of my tiny home, which twinkled and beamed like the moon all week!
All daily tasks were shared & everyone actually appreciated the space & each other even more!!!!
How might this inspire you this moon? What can you ask for help with this moon that you usually do all on your own? What daily tasks might you be able to delegate? What insights might come from your own higher guidance now you're making the daily space to receive?
Your divine feminine receptivity to guidance & support in daily life is awaiting your willingness.
And look, your mobile phone needs to receive updates & recharging everyday.... so why do YOU think you can go on and on without at least the same treatment?! _______
We're all in this together so PLEASE congratulate yourself for being more mindful & aware each day. Nature is magnificent & its wisdom will guide you profoundly into all you are really meant to be!
Well, I enjoyed an intense but fantastic 11 days with my Dad & Stepmum earlier this month & saw leaps in my own consciousness & ability to be able to hold space for familial patterns in a way that freed me instead of harming me! The Moonwash (my Mooncycle life cleansing proess) went with me everywhere & we all had such an incredibly relaxing time. Plus my Dad's health improved so much that he even realised that "his" health is in "his" hands and not only with those of Doctors and specialists! Who knew that drinking water and bathing in salt water were so fundamental to health? ;-) Water, water, water. Wash, wash, wash. Stay in the flow. That's what it's all about ladies.
IT CERTAINLY ISN'T FLOWING IN THE OUTER WORLD RIGHT NOW IS IT? So that's not the place you're going to receive your comfort, release & hope!
INSIDE is where you dive into the well of your own intuition, you open your mind & you learn, moon by moon, to let go of rigid thinking & old patterns, which are creating your life to remain as it is.
It's not about forcing change or fighting for freedom. Truly, it's about learning to self soothe, to make space for yourself, to believe, like my Dad, that your life is in "your" hands & that a divine life is possible, even in the thick of challenge, stress & turmoil.
That's what life is dedicated to! Yes Yes Yes, I know this is my path & yet wow, June kicked my ass......
Hello gorgeous and welcome back to my Dirty Laundry Diaries in which I express my truths, fears & vulnerabilities & allow you to get to know the deeper side of myself and how personally I use The Moonwash to help wash & cleanse my mind and life.
I hope you are well, in this choppy time on Planet Earth.
TRANSFORMATION I was a super independant and successful woman throughout my thirties. I had it all going on in the external world but truthfully, all of "that" was masking what was going on for me underneath. I thought then that I knew what I was working towards & what I wanted; abundance, a partner, fabulous home, partner and children together.
I was rarely single back then & kept pinning my hopes on the next handsome, succesful guy, to be the "one" who'd make it all happen and, probably, who would then allow me to let go of all that I'd built up, and fall into a deep surrender as mother and wife. Saying that, I probably would have kept working in this fantasy vision of mine but not as fiercley as I'd been doing for ten years.
Wow, I was fierce, paying a large mortgage on an old three storey, two hundred year old cottage overlooking a river. Stunning. I had an office in a Creative Industries Centre, a P.A. and many happy clients in my Design Agency called Pure Media. I was "happy" but genuinely, that happiness was based on the pinned hope of what was hopefully coming because of it all!!! A man and a shared life with "him" the answer to all problems. I am sure at some level you get where I am coming from, if you are female anyway!
This was a LONG time ago, in my late thirties and then at 40 I saw the light, quite literally, in an awakening which blew my mind wildly open. It's a LONG story but basically, what I saw and felt, showed me that the direction in which I was "working" was NOT going to bear the fruit I thought I wanted, it was only going to further exhaust me & push away my real dreams because it was based up building, constructing and working towards some thing. What I realised in that experience and over the coming couple of years, was that the person I was, was what was causing my life to be as it was and that I was actually shut off completely from RECEIVING the life I truly yearned.
So all I was working towards, was pushing away what I really wanted. I realised that I had to stop doing all of that and let go of this hurt, defensive self first of all and that meant releasing all that was keeping me safe too!!! Oh my goodness, it was terrifying but I had no choice, the awakening experience made me so clear of what had to go.
This brings me back to June, here with you now. This all happened since 2005 and here we are in 2019 (I was 51 this month) and very little of my old external life still exists but of course, here I still am, releasing parts of myself like an onion releasing and revealing inner layers..... allowing IN what I truly yearn, being more and more receptive to the goodness, navigating the journey of boundaries so I don't let in what I used to attract and what harms me and caused the walls to be built in the first place. My journey could be anyone's at some level or other as we are all facing this cleansing process and opening ourselves to who we really are.
So it was in this month that I faced a part of my past which has not been released and let go, my Dad! My Dad and Step Mum Jayne last visited Ibiza in 2009, the year after I moved here and at a time when I was opening a retreat for women, on a mountain in north Ibiza. I was, I thought, in a flow and living my truth, and for the person I was at that time I was in my truth, but I was still focussing so much on others' pain and attempting to create a sanctuary for them to release! I saw my Dad a few times while he was here but he wasn't happy with his hotel (he'd booked it before even telling me he was coming) and also with the not so good weather and so he kept himself to himself much of the trip. I showed him my home/ retreat centre, with pride of course, wanting him to be proud and know I was ok. He and I were affectionate but not really close. He just wanted me to be happy and safe and no intimacy existed really.
Anyway, he didn't come back in all this time! Ouch. He even went to Majorca for holidays in 2018 but never here, blaming it on finances but Majorca??!!! That also cost money. So..... the years rolled by, I eventually went back to the UK to visit him but that was 7 years later in 2015. My own healing process had become SO painful, that I hadn't been able to leave Ibiza as finally I had realised I needed this island as MY sanctuary. I'd been able to face my own pain and not soley focus on others, although I continue to give occasional sessions for others.
It was in 2012 that I felt ready to properly work again and started to give readings. I'd run out of money by then from my house sale in 2004 and my feminine healing work grew over a couple of years until I started to write the online programmes I deliver today. All of the information in my programmes has actually come through Oracle readings basically..... like a sub text, coming through whenever I read for someone. I was seeing patterns and images, which ended up being The Flowerpower Sy-stem and The Moonwash!!!! It has been miraculous!
Hard to put into words but I was learning to RECEIVE over those years. Receiving not only information from who knows where, my higher self perhaps but also I had to learn to receive from other people. -----------
****** Pls return as I am writing this over the next few days before full moon. XXXX
"IT IS MY HOPE, PRAYER & MISSION TO BE & TO CREATE A SACRED SPACE IN EVERYDAY LIFE"
May We're way into May now, and here in Ibiza, in the Northern Hemisphere, the mornings are light and lovely and nights are drawing out with golden hazy sunsets galore!
Ibiza, which sits in the Mediterranean sea, is a seasonal island of course & so energies are not only rising towards the full moon on the night of Saturday 18th May, but they are also rising with regards to tourists arriving, increase of cars on the normally quiet, winding roads & peaceful beaches now filling up with umbrellas, sunloungers & swarms of red & swollen bodies. It's a far cry from the serene depths of the winter, where flowers still bloom but locals are in the majority... but every year, it's what we face!
Typically at this time, I therefore begin to focus on staying extra clean and flexible. I'm always healthy & permanently follow a Ketogenic/ eating lifestyle, created by my Keto Guru Deborah Murtagh in New Zealand but around April & May, my instincts guide me to take even greater care of myself. Spring & Summer are naturally times to grow, evolve & create anyway, so, just like your garden, you gotta water the plants, weed out the overgrowth & take extra care of the soil & the roots, or "body !" in our case.
You also gotta wash away what holds you back and allow in the clean & new!
The next Moonwash Cycle starts Sunday 2nd June (last joining date Monday 27th May) so message me if you'd like to join us.
The Moonwash is my 3 month life cleansing programme & also my baby & it helps me and many women around the world, so much to stay FLOWING and to not over worry about anything.
It's designed for this & when I received it, in a vision, my intuition likened the Moon's phases to that of a washing machine (learn more about this by clicking here !)
I love this analogy and so Spring Moonwashes are particularly fresh and lively for me as I awaken & allow myself to grow into Summer!
Today I enjoyed a fab hour long Pilates class on YouTube with Fitness Blender, who offer free workouts.
In week 2 of the wash, we get more active & upwards with the Moon's cycle as we approach Full Moon & I usually have much more energy, so I plan in and enjoy more active & challenging workouts like this on purpose! I've learned the hard way, that if I don't plan these & truly recognise how I feel at each phase, I can easily become STUCK in negative thinking &, if I'm going to air my dirty laundry as the name of this blog suggests ;-) , then, I admit, if I don't plan in movement & exercise, I can feel super negative & sorry for myself!!!! Stagnation is not natural, as the moon teaches us.
Flow & evolution, is!
Fortunately for me, as an Intuitive & Natural Empowerment Coach, & Mamma of the Moonwash, I HAVE to be the change I want to see in the world, so this morning I hopped onto my pink yoga mat and got STUCK into a great session. As Benjamin Franklin said "Fail to plan & plan to fail!" And when I quote this, I recognise that most people living a normal life in this day and age, are so busy planning & chasing their tails, that they really do NOT want anything else added to their already bulging "to do list" BUT our health & state of mind are the foundation when it comes to living a good life so I believe in cultivating deep routines into my life & into the lives of my clients, which help us stay nourished, inspired & in a natural flow!
I do all my yoga, pilates and exercise sessions online because I love my own space. I also don't own a car since two and a half years, so find working out online in my own schedule, in the comfort of my own home, gives me so much joy and, increasing health & happiness. Saves so much time too!
SO IN MAY, HEALTH & FITNESS ARE KEY.... but also I am increasing my meditation practice too as the rush of rising energies can be ungrounding. A neighbour's dog is rather feisty and quite large and scary & she has a habit of surging towards my dogs & me when she sees us. She's never on a lead & comes AT us, teeth gritted so it's not comfortable, even though she's done it many times. For the first time today, I challenged her owner & asked him why he does nothing! His reply was that his "dog whisperer" says there is no problem, that she won't hurt anyone, so there is no problem! I beg to differ & found myself pushed over an edge this morning. I was proud that I didn't end up acting like an "over emotional woman" but did become slightly heated & couldn't let the negativity go for the almost half of my walk thereafter. With a mindfulness practice I was able though, to quickly see the bigger picture & release my fixed ideas about this man, whose dog I actually like, but feel needs his authority.
My point here is of course, that we cannot control or change others but we can become more heard, when we have our feet on the ground & can communicate non violently. I'm getting there but today showed me some areas I can work on! AND some things I need to put in the metaphorical wash!!!!!
GOING ON TOUR I have a reoccuring call within to travel. It's not this year I don't sense but potentially in 2020 I will embark on an adventure, whereby I begin to visit sacred sites & places around the world. It's my mission to bring the sacred into everyday life & the ancients lived this way without any question. I want & yearn to be in their creations & tap into what the divine was saying to them to cause them to invest such energy & vast amounts of time into structures of worship, which still exist today. I do believe that they created them for us, prophecying a time when humans would become so disconnected from the sacred & begin themselves to seek it again, once realising that without it, we are living empty & meaningless lives, which harm the planet on which we depend.
I will of course, keep you posted on this but already, in connecting with this vision again during this Moon, I am naturally attracting people in alignment with its manifestation. So far, people who host boat trips on the Nile, someone who studies Egyptian Mythology & Asil Toksal, a channel who has visited 80 sacred sites in the last six weeks!!!!!! I met him randomly as I was invited to join his table as he synchronistically started to tell his story. A divine timing indeed for me & deeply inspiring AND confirming.
Let's see what unfolds this moon shall we.....? But I used to be a travel agent & then an air stewardess in my twenties, so it's so in my blood to travel. The last few years of aligning & grounding after my spiritual awakening in L.A. in 2005, have kept me firmly planted in Ibiza but I feel it in my waters...... I'm about to fly.
There's a massive shift occuring astrolologically right now & I collate my current favourite astrologers' updates on my page The Moonwash Higher Perspective so I highly recommend you have a look & keep updating your mind, so you're aware of what we're being guided & supported into currently as a collective. Being aware & open to receive is a prerequisite for our collective transformation.
THE NEXT MOONWASH BEGINS AT THE START OF JUNE, WITH LAST ENTRANCE HAPPENING ON MONDAY 27TH MAY SO PLEASE CONNECT WITH ME IF YOU'D LIKE MORE INFORMATION, OR IF YOU FEEL YOURSELF CALLED TO LEARN ABOUT THE MOON CYCLE, WOULD LIKE GUIDANCE ON HOW TO BENEFIT FROM YOUR INTUITION & TO GET YOURSELF OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY IN LIFE.
Life is indeed sacred & it's our role to make that so, even in our busy everyday lives! It truly is what the world needs now.
OK everyone, I wish you a fabulous forthcoming full moon & very much look forwards to all it flowers in us humans this time. It is indeed an incredible time to be alive!
All my love, Julie Moonflower XXX
15th April 2019 I've just been looking ahead at this week and the forthcoming Full Moon on Friday (1212 GMT) and it feels like this cycle is whooshing by to be! My own Moonwash is on full speed this time around and I'm personally dissolving so many old judgments and ideas about myself that if I didn't have The Moonwash, I don't think it would have been possible!
As a teacher of "letting go", it's not difficult to deduce who is my worst client is it......? Yes, it's ME!!!!!! It's so easy to guide others and to see where they are blocked and this is why I am so grateful to The Universe and my higher self for giving me this understanding of the moon and how it's a tool for cleansing & seeing where we are blocked. I hold much wisdom, but integrating that & truly transforming from old ways, is often deeply challenging.
Opening up to receive higher guidance has been my work for over a decade, but until The Moonwash, I was usually opening up to channel other people's guidance and of course I gained a lot from that but found myself sitting outside of a circle somehow and was consistantly blocked in letting go of some of my own ancient wounds that kept painful & repetitive relationship patterns alive & kicking in my own life!
The gentleness and patience of the moon cycle is.... PRICELESS for this inner work. Painful old patterns probably won't fade over night, but, over time and with consistent washing.... out come the stains we thought would never leave us and we are renewed & open to new dynamics. It takes courage.
Anyway, I have created much more inner space for myself this year so that I can finally make these shifts, and what I have been finding, particularly this week, is that I am much more centred in my truth and this has allowed me to be more still around others and much more able to allow things to be as they are.
The result is the much needed release of so much stress and tension in my body, which I was causing in all the resistance to what was.
A lady dropped a whole paper cup of piping hot coffee over me yesterday at San Joan Market and she was more concerned at a slight drop or two on her skirt than she was of my burnt leg and entire right side of my dress soaked in her coffee. In fact she didn't even look at me whilst washing herself off! NOT A WORD SHE SPOKE TO ME! My jaw was wide open but a great and wonderful inner part of me saw the higher path and also that this was one of a series of events this week in which I was left dumbfounded (too shocked to speak) at others' unbelievable behaviour but in each case, I have kept my thoughts to myself and not in a frustrated way but in a suddenly wow, oh my goodness this is so liberating and amazing way!
Perhaps this sounds a bit naive or weak but to me, I sensed in every event, that the other person was oblivious and that my opinion in that moment would have been resisted and I would just have been seen as the villain, so keeping quiet was actually a huge gift for me; people are people are as they are and we can't change them! Phew! What a lesson and what a FREEDOM to be able to pop them (and my dress) in the wash and accept them as they are? Being AWARE of others is very different to shutting up or shutting down. And this is my wonderful lesson this cycle.
What was also lovely was that the coffee shop gave me my drink for free AND a man in the queue lent me a cold can of drink to rest on my burnt skin! Had I only focussed on the "oblivious coffee spilling lunatic woman", I might have missed the other gifts all around me and been too closed to also receive a number compliments on the aformentioned coffee stained dress! And not one person noticed the coffee spillage :-)
One of my Moonwash Items this cyle was about my social life, which is rather small these last few years. I'm sensitive and, as you may gather, a recovering judgment addict, thinking that everyone around me ought to be as sensitive and aware as me but how AWARE am I, if I am constantly in resistance? So here's my dirty laundry, shared in public :-) I am a recovering judgement addict! And recovery feels sooooooooo good! Wow..... I am finally feeling genuine inner freedom from others, even though others have not changed at all! And you know what, my social life is opening up and changing too! As within, so without!
My sharing this week is pretty much centred around this subject and so I hope it may help you to find more inner space in your life too or, if nothing else, bring you a giggle at my coffee saga.
Ghandi was not joking when he said "Be the change you wish to see in the world." And it's the same with Forgiveness. When we forgive someone or release them from our judgments, they AND we receive the benefits! Free coffees, compliments and a very lovely day at the market for me.
Here's to a full flowing and bubbly, beautiful FULL MOON peak to your wash this weekend.
I'll be thinking of you and dancing in the moonlight with you in my mind. Until next time. All my love Julie xxx