Last week was simply "quite a week" in Goddessa world. I seemed to step back so much more than normal and yet see all things come together in simply the loveliest of ways!
The shift really began .......mid week, when I now know that solar flares were at an all time peak. At the exact time of this occurrence, I had felt to meditate on a drawing I had just spontaneously drawn of an arched, sacred white curved building. I wanted to step inside the building, which was painting a picture inside my mind, so I lay down and was instantly placed inside its white, soft and naturally undulating walls. Bliss.
To be honest, I have seen this building many times in my imagination but now I felt more to actually be there physically, even though I was also aware that I was lying on my bed in my cottage in Ibiza!
I found myself in a huge, enormous kind of futuristic government building and not the type of government building we would recognize today, no, this one was a kind of IDEAL, for the greater good, superbly intelligently lead kinda place! COOL. I felt myself question why I was there and an answer just seemed to seep into my body. That I was just to BE there. I was very, very tall and wearing white and I was just walking around, looking at a meeting room where I sensed people were soon to gather to discuss. My role, it felt, was to be there and therefore set a tone or spread my essence or something like that; it is actually hard to explain in words.
The building was silent, holy & beautiful. Ancient in feel and yet super-futuristic in architectural design & usage. The size of it still puts me in awe and it seemed to have no beginning or end and was all consuming. A gorgeous feeling filled me. I felt that I was totally at one with it.
When I again questioned where this place was, I received an answer as if through my body and each cell vibrated with "you are here now. There is nowhere else. All things exist here." The sense I had and still have is that this building exists in some way already and that (here comes the crazy bit) I just cannot yetvisit it in my "normal" physical body.
I told you it was quite a week didn´t I???!!!
On from here I was much less physically driven all week. The meditation experience has given me a deeper understanding of our inextricable link to everything around us. I knew this already but somehow I have sunk deeper into my own existence since having this sort of cellular conversation.
When I give readings, I or the client asks a question and the answers also come to me in this same feeling/cellular way so it was wonderful to see this coming through in the meditation and to integrate more into my daily life that this is how we exist, in this receiving way, communicating with life through our being! Again, a challenge to put into words!
The week was far from over and I had more social arrangements than is normal for me, having had to live like a hermit for the last 4 years as I integrated my various profoundly intense spiritual experiences into a totally (previous) atheist & modern mind.
So, feeling somewhat rested after my meditation & armed with a deep feeling of trust and faith of intelligent life in and around me, I found myself actually enjoying myself a whole lot more than normal! This MISSION of mine to spread peace & trust was now actually starting to really include me in its circle and my own worries and lack of faith were fading fast. They say that what you give comes back to you and certainly this week I have seen my own mission´s actions begin to boomerang right back at me!
You see my spiritual experiences of the last few years have totally shown me that we are part of a miraculous play of light, which is fueled by something called LOVE but my own nervous system just could not trust what I saw and I became utterly frozen and locked down if that makes sense in an attempt to protect myself from the sheer beauty, the total inclusion and absolute peace. As if in a deep cocoon, I had to learn to relax into the dark and understand that everything had been necessary in order for me to come to this understanding today.
Weird creatures we are that we would rather have isolated thoughts than be a part of life´s dance through us, for us and with us! It takes time to accept this though and I forgive myself for my slowness in letting down my guard because life around me was not like that when I was growing up & I was pretty much scared to death of people!
Thank goodness though that I am now coming out of this cocoon, for now I can really fly back into life and appreciate all of the new opportunities and experiences which lie in front of me.
Across the page is a photo of the Equinox circle I joined last week, opposite the tremendous rock Es Vedra. What a gorgeous couple of hours spent being lead into another meditation in which we received guidance on how to rest in our hearts during Earth´s deep changes and our transition into The Golden Age which lies ahead.
The week far from over I was invited to give readings at a gorgeous beach wedding on Saturday and boy oh boy was it an amazing afternoon/evening.
The bride and groom Isabel and Danny had booked me to give free readings to their guests who were mainly from the UK and wow, what a gorgeous, friendly and open group of men and women?!
I hope to have images of the day on the website soon because it was fairy tale stuff. I must have given about 30 readings in the 3 hours and was really quite blown away at how answers were flying in and helping people to see though obstacles, realize and actually admit to dreams & to be able to step back from normal-rational thinking for a moment!
Having a reading is a deeply personal experience so it was surprising how this intimacy was retained whilst an eager queue of people waited patiently for their turn on the flower covered day bed I was given on which to work.
The sand was 3 metres away, the sea glistened and the golden light shone. The bride and groom beamed as much as the bright September day and everyone celebrated an obvious love affair & enjoyed fine wine and food by Elements Restaurant, Benirras.
Again, I´m not done but I will wrap up less indulgently now. I have let go of my weekly Sunday readings at Cala Llena market and Benirras so my Sunday this week was just for ME! I ended up wanting to go to the market however so I drove myself off very merrily without a care in the world.
Returning with SEVEN pairs of new earrings (yes you would too if you saw the prices), a new log basket for the winter for my new open fireplace and a step ladder so I can attempt to train my ivy to wander where I would like it to. A gorgeous day and then off for an Indian Children´s Charity event at Nagai- Sushi Restaurant.
The charity is called "Friends of Ramana´s Garden."
The charity is a non-profit charity established in 2005 in the United States and they support Ramana’s Garden India, a wonderful and loving children’s home and school near the renowned spiritual center of Rishikesh in northern India.
Their mission as Friends is to support abandoned, destitute, and abused children who are given food, shelter, necessities, and education so they may thrive in a world that once seemed almost hopeless. "
One doesn’t have to be an “orphan” to come and live at Ramana’s Garden. One has to be at risk of, hunger, death, abuse, torture, or being sold into prostitution or child labor. Most of all, the children are given lots of love and nurturing in a welcoming and tolerant spiritual environment."
Bye bye for now Gods and Goddesses......may your week bring new insights, fresh guidance and an easier more faithful, trusting flow!
In searching for internal images to reflect the beautiful building´s feel, I stumble across this place which is called moon house of all things! Those who know me will know my love of all things "moon"!
The one I was inside was more rounded than this but this begins to give you the feel of the sacredness of the interior and the significance of its spiritual basis for being.
There is deep wisdom within our very flesh, if we can only come to our senses and feel it. ~Elizabeth A. Behnke~
Cocoons are a place of safety & healing & a place in which you can transform. Once we outgrow them though, we have to face our fears & come out of the dark into a brand, new life in which we may not know the new us!
Around 100 of us gathered for this stone circle meditation in the south of Ibiza. A gorgeous hot day, I have the freckles to prove it! Image by Cat Milton.
Es Vedra. Yes, it´s for real!!! The 7th most magnetic spot on the planet! Our view from the stone circle. Spectacular. Goose pimples whenever I see her. Image courtesy of Chris/Munich
This inner sanctuary space was cleared and the guests gathered for the wedding ceremony under the tree which dripped elegantly with bright purple-pink flowers! BLISS