I expected this week to be more SOCIAL than normal & I was not proven wrong at all!
For those of you who know me then you know that this would perhaps have, until this summer, filled me with dread for I truly have retreated from the world for several years now and, whilst I could appear to be sociable, in reality I was completely closed off inside and in something of a cocoon.
The idea then of socializing has been an unpleasant one for 4 or 5 years now and my lack of mobile phone has helped me to tell the world that I REALLY was not available for much at all!!!!
To explain a little, it was my sudden & traumatic spiritual OPENING in California in 2005 that caused an equally sudden and total CLOSING DOWN for me so it´s not that I don't like people or that I want to be a hermit all my life but my opening up experience was so frightening, that I had to deal almost solely with me for several years
as I healed and still heal my central nervous system from the deep and total shock!!!
Moving to Ibiza was a new beginning to me and a chance to really heal.
To soothe my distraught central nervous system from the shock I had to gently work on calming my mind and body & attempt to accept & digest this new amazing way of living spiritually and in divinity and it has taken a long, long, long, long time! In fact time is one of the most precious medicines I have found throughout these years. TIME is indeed a great healer!
Being with others during the "retreating years" was simply too profoundly painful as I felt like a turtle without its shell, after the shock opening of 2005 and I was left feeling vulnerable and unsafe like I did as a little girl. I write something about this on my "Founder" page and more information about it will appear in coming months so I won´t go more into this now but suffice to say that I am happy and relieved to be able to enjoy people again &, more importantly, to have found my tribe along the way!
The photo above is taken with two of those tribal women who I had lunch with this week and with whom I feel a deep soul connection. Their way of life mirrors my own as they learn and discover "how to live" with ease and with their own unique divine connections to life. So "THANK YOU Goddesses for appearing in my world. I honour your path and hope that I add comfort to you as you do to me, just by your presence!"
Here are a few more of the wonderful goddeses I know here in Ibiza (and a God too of course). All of whom I adore!!! In case they didn't know!
Apart from lunching, which I appear to do rather well lately, I have been finally gathering the grapes on the country lane where I live and making amazingly, sweet grape juice! I really enjoyed doing this and can see myself being so impatient for next season´s grapes harvest!
I have really had to wait for them to be at their sweetest though but NOW they are perfect. WOW. I can´t put into words how tasty they are and without the skins and pips etc, which I have sieved out, the flavor truly is divine! So many just go to waste here and I am glad that I took myself off with my huge bowl and collected as many as I could and spent an hour or so devoting my attention to extracting the juice.
How I could have lived to long without the belief that there is a higher power God/Goddess I really do not know but I was raised to by an atheist mum and so I just took on her ways even though I have to admit that I always had an underlying curiosity for something else!
The taste of my grape juice is quite enough to make me KNOW that there is something else at play here people! I mean why do they taste THAT good??? Why is there such fertility in the land here in Ibiza and in so many places on the Earth? How come we are given water and food from the very earth on which we walk and drive our cars? It is worth reflecting on now and again and coming back into awe and appreciation at what lies beneath our feet!!!
TALKING OF THE EARTH....
It is when the Full Moon rises that I generally remember that I am walking and living on a GLOBE in the sky, suspended in space with no possibility of knowing completely how or why!!!!
When I see the big, gorgeous plump moon sat high in the black velvet sky then I say "oh yeh, here I am, on this globe again!!!! Floating in space. Wow!" I sound like one of the Beatles or hippies of the 60´s I know but "hey man!" take a look up there and have a think or even a good old PONDER about it! Isn´t it incredible??????
SO.....fortunately you will be glad to hear that I have been working during the last three Full Moons so I haven´t completely spaced out and gone all psychedelic crazy ;-)
Maybe you have seen some of my posts about the sumptuous Full Moon Celebrations which have been taking place at Atzaro on the Beach, on Cala Nova Beach. The events are organized by ToBe Events who just happen to be my next door neighbors Toby and Belinda Clarke. My life is a bit like this now....all very synchronistic and on my doorstep and these guys quite literally are! Anyway, they know my work and so I have been booked to give the dinner guests a reading. Here is my setting this week...
I was shown who I would be & how I would live and now it is coming to fruition! With ease may I add. Not that I am not working or playing my part but I feel now that I am swimming with the beautiful tides and not working against some opposing force which is how it felt to be alive before!
One of my favorite sayings is "What´s true to you come to you" and to me that means that whatever you think about yourself or life is what will happen to you or how you will experience it anyway. The key therefore is in wondering "am I happy with what is happening to me?" If not, then it is time to release some of the negative thoughts and find out what lies beneath.
My work involves the knowing that all is divine and all is our own creation, whether consciously or sub consciously so it is key to be aware of the part we are playing in our own masterpiece called US!
For what it´s worth, my own view of myself until my awakening was pretty much doomed and I was living out a life which had been always running into a vey hard and evil brick wall. It was not pleasant, I was not happy and I had no idea that it was me that was unknowingly driving the car! THANKFULLY I woke up though, albeit shockingly and now I live to come into this new understanding each and EVERY day and to share what I know with you.
DRESSING UP.... yep, this is my life now!
Dressing up for the full moon events (and generally day to day to be honest) has become one of the highlights of my life! This month I knew the night would be a bit chillier so I chose a long sleeved black dress which a friend had given to me earlier in the year and with it I chose a red-feathered head-dress (not sure of the proper name for these lovely accessories!) The girls in the shop were SO helpful and seemed to be just as excited by me at my purchase & forthcoming night! Thanks to you all at Angels, Santa Gertrudis.
I so, so, so enjoyed dressing up and pinning my hair up like this. It felt like a dream and something I have felt inside myself for a VERY long time. When I was training in the Goddess Oracle for 18 months, near Glastonbury, we had to paint certain Goddesses on whom we were meditating and digesting into our lives and ALL of my drawings and paintings included women with their hair pinned up here and there and much of the focus was on the way the hair was dressed. It felt extremely important to me and played a large part in how they expressed themselves.
Now I see this actually starting to manifest through me and it feels so natural AND magical all at the same time! I truly know that the seed of life is INSIDE of us. "As within, so without."
I will keep you posted on whether I can continue reading there throughout the winter because of the small inside space but I do fully intend to continue if at all possible and will discover another venue if it proves impossible at Paloma (fingers crossed not). For now, I wait and see.
-from 12.30 - 4.00pm.
Donations of 10 Euros
SO I BID YOU ALL A WONDERFUL WEEK with many blessings and insights which serve you and bring ease into your being-ness.
I share with you some pretty flowers which adorn my altar this morning and some berries (above) which I picked for the full moon event.
"Listen to your heart this week...it speaks to you...listen to your soul this week...it knows and guides you to your highest good. Be still, listen.
Then simply receive that which wants to enter your life."
- Julie Gibbons